Bicycle vs Nikon D90? Hmmm...

arggghhhh...confuse, confuse, confuse. I'm confuse! I suddenly have lots of things and interests that i wanted to do at one time. Suddenly i got geng here to do cycling, one of my favorite activities that i had last time and i just want to start it of again. the problem is i don't have a bicycle, the kit, the attire, etc as i have to start fresh all over again. But i really want to join the geng very2 soon. they seems like have sooo much fun, cycling every saturday morning in group. however, the cost might be approximately Rm1,500++. the cheapest bicycle that suit for normal cycling is maybe around 600,700. well, it's maybe. i haven't done this activity for very2 long time and i really have to go survey a good bicycle for me! haisshhh..hopefully i can make it through.

Nevertheless, i have one passion in photography. actually i really want to take this hobby seriously. i love camera, i love being myself in front of camera, i love posing, i love photography. and i wanted to have my own canggih camera! Because now i'm already working, i think and i believe this is the time for me to make it real. and it so happened that i met 'kaki' photography in my friend's wedding. Alhamdulillah, thank god i met someone that willingly to teach and guide me on photography world. well, kaki dh jumpe, but camera? i just have a very normal camera, and now i know i have to have semi pro camera! o yeah....! I always thinking of Nikon D90. long long time ago. and i started to be passionate now when i met the 'kaki'.hahhaa. It just u knowla, to get e camera, it involves lots of cost. The cheapest i can get is USD$1049 in amazon.com. the cheapest in KL via online is RM4,188. hmm..still expensive. it's a Nikon D90 (the body) (12.3MP, DX Format, 3" LCD, Live View, Video, 4.5fps) with Nikon AF-S DX NIKKOR 18-105mm f/3.5-5.6G ED VR Len. with the price of RM4,000, definitely i wanna grab it.

But again, both hobbies will cost me about Rm6,000++! haiyaaa....can i just do an installment for camera and pay full cash for the bicycle? huhu.. i just can't resist, i can't control! Marriage fund can wait, but the camera and bicycle cannot waitla..auuwwwww! like my friend said, photography is a rich daddy hobby! hahaha...cannot comment on that, but somehow i agree on it. But what can i do? i fallin love with it. Pls let me marry the Nikon D90.waaaa........

I know that myself has no money that much to buy in full cash. i know that i have to get my monthly expenditure very tight, cut everything, cut shopping, dieting, fasting, so that i can keep the money faster, and i can buy both. pls..pls..pls... Tapi kalo nak kate priority? i would love to have a bicycle first. the reason is simple. i foresee myself will not going back to KL oftenly and will staying at kertih for quite sometimes. i have the geng and getting know each other better. i also need myself gets fit all the time. and one more thing, it's cheaper than camera cost obviously!

Pls guys, pray for me that i could be able to keep more money and make my dream becomes true ya! i'm serious on it and i'm hoping it'll be real.

Missing A Lot...

sometimes when i sit alone, muhasabah diri or having relax time, i tend to flash back all the sweet past memories where i had when i was studying. not only the uni itself, but friends, studies, art activities, etc. Honestly, i've been missing UKM this lately. I miss to have fun time again as student, get involve with the activities and nasyid jamming.

eventho i was not ko-k student for nasyid; FI & Insyirah, but i could proudly say that my batch (2003-2007) had left a legacy for insyirah. Nasyid is my flesh and blood. i started singing when i was 6 yrs old and i became a vocalist since i was 10 years old and it never stop. started with nothing, it strengthen from year to year until now i suppose :) i still missing nasyid jamming and practice with FI & Insyirah' team. Sumtimes, i'm feeling like i wanna pursue my master at UKM, so that i would have opportunity to join again ARTISUKMA :p i just missed it. Miss very much. UKM also has given me opportunity to polish my taranum skill in tilawah. eventho it was quite late at that time ( i just participated when i was in 3rd year), but i was so valuable whereby that's how i met again my godsister, Kak malina a.k.a Kak lin in one of tilawah IPTA competation where at that time, i was representing UKM whereby she represented UIAM. Alhamdulliah! big give to me! after meeting her again, i never stop learning taranum again and i don't want to turn back again.

Other than that, my silat's friends! oh please, i really miss gelanggang silat. I suppose i have to struggle so much if i want to get serious again in silat. it's getting fade as i'm not practicing so much the technique after i graduated. Sorry cikgu, i miss silat so much, but i have let some ilmu goes away from me. I wish i could learn from the scratch again.

being a student is the most wonderful time in my life especially University life. Adik2, never let your time in Uni running away just like that! And after quite sumtrimes, u'll realize how regret u were because i doesn't learn sumthing other than study! come one, have life. eventho i was student at that time, i still can enjoy every moment of it. practicing at DECTAR, studying at PTSL, going to pasar malam, etc. so many things! i hope i could turn back time, make it more wonderful and make it to the max but i know the time will not be back to us. I know i becoming more adult and i have to hurry or time will leave me wasted just like that. Time is like a money and ppl now are become materialistic from time to time. no more work because of Allah or Ibadah, but it becomes work because of money and i have to admit it. so poor, so sad to face the reality. however, i cannot run from the reality because that's what have been set by the ppl nowadays.

Slowly i learn to accept it but most of the time i feel devastated. if i could, i want to let go my current job and do what i like; become an artist. not artist in terms of being a singer, or actress, but my heart is so attached with Malay arts and culture; i.e. Malay traditional dancing, theater, Asli music, silat, etc. but i know i couldn't afford that. money is everything and i know i have to work not for myself, but also for my family. insyaallah, i started to like my job and i'm hoping i'll continue this job til my last breath.

but if u ask me, if i have a choice, what would be? i will definitely answer, " I wanna turn back to Uni life, being a very active student in malay arts and excel in study at the same time" :)

My craziness..crazy...crazy...crazy...

Year End sale is everywhere! tambah kopak la duit aku jawabnyer. actually i am not a shopaholic type because i dun really like to collect spesific stuff. But i have to admit that day to day when i become older; as if adult (hehehe), aku sgt2 cenderung pada shoes especially high heel shoes. eventho i'm living and working at plant environment/area, but i couldn't resist myself to wear high heel shoes everyday to work. maybe i couldn't care less because i'm working at admin building. kalo engineer, confirm lame dh kene sound. mane taknyer, kalo dh jadi engineer, coverall je la everyday dress. that's why i cannot be an engineer because i'm a trendy chick! huhu. trendy2 pn, aku rs aku masih sopan dengan mengekalkan busana muslimah dan trendy yang tak keterlaluan. here is terengganu babe. u have to watch out what u wear, and how u carry yourself. ppl are still bind with a conservatives mindset. so, the trendy dress become lesser in here and the temptation to shop oso is less. But still, when i comes back to KL, and start hanging around in shopping mall, i couldn't resist and ctrl myself to enter shoes outlet. see the pictures, there are part of my high heel shoes collection. lots more in KL, and i'm starting counting money to add my shoe collection.hehehe. honestly, i only have one shoe without heel. yang lain, sume heel and i have more than 4 shoes with 3inch heel and above. huh!

But, i dun want to be hypocrite. this is the way i am. i feel confident when im walking and what kind of shoe i wear during the day, reflect my mood also along the day. to look funky, aggressive and daring, definitely a pair of boot! and all my boots are high heel.huhu. rock man!to look ayu, sopan, and naive, shoe with 1 1/2 - 2 inch looks good for me with baju kurung or kebaya. but my advice, try to take out the shoe when u are in the workstation because it's not so good if you wear it constantly along the day. it will gives pressure to the foot and itu yang buat kaki takleh bertahan lame dan postur badan boleh membengkok. i owaiz remind myself, nak pkai heel, boleh. but choose wisely the heel, brape inch nak pkai, type of heel, tirus ke, tebal ke. all dat are very important depending on event and occasion. at the same time, aku tetap jage kesihatan. ^_^

my favorite brand:
1. Vincci (paling byk collection)
2. Twins
3. Esarli
4. Bonia
5. GMX
6. Crocodile
7. Crocs
8. Hush puppies (super comfort)
9. Sentini
10. Sembonia
11. Princess
12. Giosardio
13. URS & Inc (all my Boots are this brand)

And i have plan oledi to add collection with few other brands such as Nose, Pedal works, Snow, etc which i affordable to have at least one from each brand. huhu. Can't resist!

p/s: if other ladies likes to collect bags, perfumes, dress, etc, my CRAZINESS is SHOE!

5 Cara Cegah jadi Pelupa!

Lately ni, i found myself easily forget even i just hold the things or the stuff few mins ago. aku pn tak tau la nape, but i think it is heavily connected to makanan 'rohani', routine exercise yang aku dh jarang sgt buat sekarang ni dan bende2 yang kite makan setiap hari. Selain membca al-quran, ade beberapa perkara lain yang boleh dipratikkan untuk mengurangkan rase pelupa. i read one article in Majalah wanita edisi 4-10 Dec 2009 and i think it is very interesting to share with the others where most of the tips are very agreeable. 5 cara cegah jadi pelupa:

1. Floss setiap hari
pembentukan plak pada gigi tidak baik untuk otak. menurut Michael Roizen yang juga penulis buku You- The owner's manual: An insider's guide to the body that will make you healthier and younger, plak yang terbentuk antara gigi boleh menyebabkan reaksi imun yang menyerang pembuluh darah, sehingga pembuluh darah tidak boleh menghantar nutrisi ke bahagian otak. oleh itu, jangan lupe floss gigi setiap hari. if terlupe, simpan benang floss di kawasan yang mudah dilihat agar and tidak lupe untuk floss gigi anda nanti.

2. Latihan berganda di Gym
Sama seperti olahraga yang boleh menjaga boday shape, senaman otak juga boleh menjaga bentuknya agar sentiasa bagus. melakukan kedua-duanya akan memberi manfaat berlipat ganda kepada anda. caranya cube isi teka teki silang kata, selesaikan Sudoku, etc sambil mengayuh basikal di gym. atau boleh mendengar pelajaran bahasa atau iPod sambil berlari. menurut pengkaji, melatih tubuh dan fikiran dlm masa yang sama boleh meremajakan sel2 otak. tak suke multitasking? dun worry! isi teka teki silang kata atau Sudoku selepas berolahraga. waktu begini amat sesuai kerana otak masih benar2 bertenaga.

3. Makan banyak ikan
Asid lemak omega-3 yang terdapat dlm ikan i.e. salmon dan makanan yang diperkaya seperti yogurt merupakan antara makanan yang terbaik untuk otak. DHA, sejenis omega-3, sangat efektif untuk menurunkan peradangan aretri dan sekaligus memperbaiki lapisan pelindung saraf. hal ini akan mengurangkan lupa akibat usia, mengurangkan risiko depression dan meningkatkan daya fikiran.

4. Senaman
Senaman meningkatkan degupan jantung 3 kali seminggu selama 20 minit. malah dengan hanya berjalan kaki sahaja akan memperbanyakkan oksigen di bahagian otak sehingga dapat membantu pertumbuhan new cells. latihan aerobik juga dikatakan berkesan untuk melatih otak. x perlu bersusah payah ke gym. ini kerana, di dalam kajian, aktiviti fizikal yang sederhana dan maksimum yang dilakukan seminggu sekali sudah terbbukti boleh membantu memperlahankan fungsi kognitif sehingga 30%.

5. Gunakan sumpit
kajian menunjukkan aktiviti yang melibatkan hujung jari secara langsung akan menstimulasikan otak. aktiviti yang melibatkan hujung jari seperti menggunakan sumpit, memintal, atau memutarkan pen atau pensel di antara jari juga boleh membantuotak dengan cara melancarkan peredaran darah. perjalanan darah yang baik akan membantu nutrisi2 yang baik dihantar ke bahagian otak.

Kertih's Life

Ya Allah! it's been a long long time i didn't come to my own page. siannyer di abandoned sebegini rupe. huhu. i guess after 6 months i'm in kertih, then i got a lil bit chance to drop by my page.

Alhamdulillah, since i transfered from KL to Kertih, terangganu started 1 June 2009 ago, tak banyak mslh yang aku hadapi. i guess because i could adapt with people culture and environment faster. that is why i become comfortable from day to day. lots of friends were asking me "betah ke u hidup kat Ganu esp kertih tu?", " u slalu balik KL x?", "u bo accept food kat ctu x?", etc..lot lot of questions. i suppose that i have to answer, " yes, im epy living there". frankly speaking, i dunno why i become fall in luv with T'ganu after a week i was here sedangkan dl this is one of the place that i wanted to stay away from. i think because i had enuf living at KL, all the chaos, noises, sins, etc. i could throw away all the past stories in KL. i have started a good comfortable life here. eventho there are few setbacks, obstacles, difficulties esp the foods (too sweet) but i learn from day to day. I think foods doesn't have so much prob. i can owaiz cook by myself.

And because of dat, i bought electrical stuffs such as blender, microwave oven and i subscribing streamyx. Initially i was using Celcom Broadband. but to tell u the truth, the coverage was totally disaster and devastated! i think those people living at paka or Rantau have better coverage but not in my neighbourhood area. dono why, but i have to admit that.

I think overall i love this place except for the household or even other stuffs' price! so damn expensive whereby i have to bargain once i come back to KL. currently i owaiz go back like once in every 2 weeks, but i think for new year 2010 aim and goal, i will reduce it to once a month. bukan ape, kalau takde keperluan sgt, i dun think i need to come back. me and my family still keep contacting as usual, say hi and everything. It's my family and nothing can change it. It just im learning to set my future life here. permanently or may not be? terserah pada takdir, dan jodoh. If i meet someone here, i will definitely love to stay here longer as the environment is soo attached to family life. u can have time to send and fetch ur kids from school, send them to their tuition( i think they go for extra class instead of tuition), in fact family can have family activities together gether during weekend since Mesra Mall is becoming happening and crowded nowadays.

i tell u what, everyhting u want, u'll get it here in one mall. eally i mean not really everything. but nothing less than necessity. outlet that become people's attention now:

1. TMC a.k.a. GIANT ( i dono why they change the name, but it is soo obvious that it is GIANT! opened 27th Nov 2009).located at both wings at MM. good strategy.
2. Big Apple - my favourite too. and there is a free wifi inside the dining area. best kan?
3. Toys R Us - can u imagine Kertih has this outlet? pergghhhh
4. Verns - Shoes outlet. but i never buy there. sori to say, but i dun see it comfortable and nice in my foot.hehehe
5. Sports Planet futsal - place where sumtimes in wednesday i'll play futsal here with friends. but i am more to squash right now ^_^
6. Bowling - new attraction in MM. just open after raya after TMC opening. it also has small rooms like corner for karaoke..auuuwwww...i like it. (bukan karok kotak ye)
7. maybank and CIMB - definitely crowded everyday
8. Pizza Hut and Burger King - but the pizza doesn't look like follow the quality as compared to KL. it is a francais, the expectation shud be the same everywhere rite?
9. Al-Ikhsan and sports world - i bought some sports attire and shoe also here.
10. Secret recipe - i like to have it there coz got 10% discount for petronas staff for dining in but no discount for take away
11. Starbuck - i think kertih is open minded enuf to accept this cofee house to be in MM! and i tell u what, it always happening with full ppl inside there having indulging coffee while surfing the free wi-fi there or just have a chit chat with friends. here is also me and my friends fav port for leparkin.
12.Guardian - Thank god there is at least one pharmacy near to my hse. easy for any emergency
13. kamdar - OK for family to have some shop on fabrics. quite small and i never been inside but i guess the choices are quite OK
14. Rotiboy - very rare to find rotiboy outlet even in KL. place i remember have this rotiboy are only KLCC and Alamanda. used to be at Midvaley, but close oledi.
15. Tanamerah and Felisa - Tanamerah use traditional way to do facial, spa, sauna, etc. use malay herbs.Felisa? i never tried the brand before.
16. carlo Rino - i guess quite branded name for this brand. not so into this brand coz i could see the design is quite suit for datin2 or makcik2 ^_^
17. Body shop - next to carlo rino. it is expensive but sumhow lots of ppl walk in to the outlet and buy something. good biz ha!
18. Digi and Celcom telecommunication shop - sell broadband, HPs, gadgets, etc
19. Ogawa outlet - dono if ade org beli. kalo jalan depan, mesti kosong je.huhu
20. another 2 outlets. cant remember the names. but one is looks like a boutique and one more looks like Sinma (girl accessories)
21. Got food court also. there are nasi ayam, hot plates, sizzling, nasi kukus, AhameDia,ABC, etc.

coming soon:
1. TGV cinema - dono whether it will really open or not. but i saw ppl doing some wiring at the area last time. betul al kut. pecah record la at Ganu ade cinema.huhu
2. Squash court - i totally like this. but i will not going to play there because i can play free at KGRP ( i mean with staff subscription for all facilities at KGRP except for golf)

Hm...i think i have given a very detail info on what are inside MM. haaa...dun underestimate us ok! since TMC and bowling are opened, the parking lot are super full except after the MM close. this is new attraction for not only Kertih, but for the ppl the area, i.e. kemaman, paka, dungun.i think kertih ppl is starting to be proud of what they have in kertih.

Actually i am not soo into the mall unless i really bored or have sumthing to buy, then i will go there because it's only 5mins drive from my hse! but what i love the most is the natures. for those who are nature lovers, right place to come; terengganu. i am a nature lover, that is why i feel soo attached here. i know lots of ppl in a very short time, meeting new ppl everyday esp got 'kaki' or geng to do outdoor activities, i.e. snorkeling, jog at beach, jungle tracking, etc. recently, i am planiing to buy a bicycle to start active again in cycling as well as mountain biking. i am looking forward to join as much outdoor activities as i can here coz i just love it! that is why until now ppl look at me as a very active, lasak and strong girl.hahaha. n maybe that is why it is so hard for me to find someone to become my bf or calon suami.hehehe. but i am myself. i will never change myself because of other guy. i had enuf and i menderita last time only because i wanted to satisfy my ex-v=bf to become very stylish but yet very sensitive and lemah lembut girl sedangkan aku tau diriku is not like that. i have a very masculine character and im hoping whoever that love me will accept me the way i am =)

ok, enuf said. See u in the next writing....

kau sahabatku, kau teman sejati........

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim........

sekali lagi ku kehilangan seseorang yang ku kira sungguh bermakna dlm hidupku. jangka waktu persahabatan yang menjangkau 6 tahun bukannya sekejap. malah ukhuwah itu terlalu rapat dan manis utk di kenang. Ira! bahagialah engkau di sana wahai temanku. kau racun, kau juga penawar. kau inspirasiku, kau juga Pelindungku di saat2 aku jatuh, disaat2 aku terluka, di saat2 aku kehilangan, juga di saat2 aku memerlukan. kasih sayang dan perhatian Ira dan abg long berikan pada Ima terlalu bererti buat Ima.

Saat ini, Ima sangat rindukan Ira. Ira tahu x, abg long tak tidur semalaman melihat saat jasad Ira di bawa ke liang lahad? di kambus ke perut bumi. Ima takkan mampu menghadapi dan melihat saat2 itu Ira. Ima tak sekuat yang Ira sangkakan. Ini semua terlalu awal utk kita melihat pengakhirannya Ira. tapi Ima redha. redha dengan qada' dan qadar. pasrah akan ujian tuhan terhadap hamba2NYA sekaligus menginsafkan Ima akan ketentuan dan peringatan Allah bahawa ajal itu menjemput hamba2NYA tak kira masa. walaupun kita menantikan waktu2 terindah dlm hidup kita, tapi sekiranya Allah lebih menyayangi diri ini, pasti DIA akan menjemput diri kita menikmati masa2 yang terindah bersamaNYA. maka bahagialah mereka yang beriman dan bertaqwa kepadaNYA.

Saat ini, Ima berusaha menjadi kuat dan tabah. bukan utk diri Ima sahaja, tetapi utk semua org terutamanya abg long. Ima kira dia lah org yang paling tertekan dan bersedih atas pemergian Ira sedangkan Ira dan abg long akan mengecapi saat2 bahagia dalam ms 2 minggu lagi. Sayangku Ira, Ima akan cuba menjadi caunselor yang terbaik utk abg long saat ini, seperti yang biasa Ira lakukan pd abg long saat2 dia menghadapi depresi dan tekanan. Ima percaya, Ira takkan mahu melihat dia kesedihan dan murung sepanjang masa.

Iraku sayang, Ima akan berusaha menjadi lebih tabah selepas ini. Macam yang Ira katakan dulu, Ima semakin matang, Ima semakin gagah mengharungi sepak terajang hidup, Ima semakin yakin dan positif dengan hidup dan Ima akan sentiasa menjadi wanita yang lebih feminin dari sehari ke sehari. Harapan Ima, biarlah ini akan sentiasa konsisten dan berpanjangan. I will try to be a better women, and solehah too.

Ira, tak perlu dirisaukan tentang Ima lagi. Ima hidup bahagia di Kertih and i mean it! cuma Ima tak sempat berkongsi saat2 manis dan pengalaman Ima selama 2 bulan Ima sudah menjalani hidup di kertih. belum sempat Ima ceritakan pada Ira yang Ima dah bertemu seseorang di kertih. seorang lelaki yang sgt baik. seseorang yang mempunyai ciri2 seperti yang Ira katakan pada Ima dl yang sebenarnya compatible utk Ima. Dia baik, soft spoken, berakhlak, cool, asas agama yang kuat, keluarga yang sederhana, punyai banyak persamaan interest dengan Ima dan yang plg penting, deep inside my heart, i like him because the way he is. Tp die belum mengetahui isi hatiku Ira ku sayang. Ima belum bersedia dan kuat utk menyatakan isi hati Ima pd dia. tp Ima dah beri hint pd nya. tp tak pasti lah samada dia faham atau tidak Iraku sayang. jangan risau sahabatku, Ima akan hidup dengan lebih baik di kertih. Ima dah buang dan tinggalkan segala kenangan pahit di KL yang tak mungkin Ima pungut semula. harapan Ima, semoga jodoh Ima adalah lelaki itu dan itulah doa Ima saban hari. Cuma Ima terkilan kerna Ima belum sempat berkongsi tentangnya pada Ira lantaran Ima sendiri belum cukup kuat utk menyatakan Ima mula menyukai seseorang setelah Ima tutup pintu hati Ima buat sekian lama.

Sahabatku, damai lah engkau di sana. Ima takkan melupakan Ira. Semoga Ira berada di kalangan hamba2NYA yang beriman dan bertaqwa. terima kasih kerana sudi menjadi rakan Ima, menjadi sahabat dan teman Ima. Iraku sayang, Ima sangat bertuah mengenali Ira kerana menjadi teman susah dan senang. memberi dorongan dan galakan yang tak putus2. Ima sayang Ira.

Al-Fatihah buat Khairani........

Telah tiba saat waktu kau tinggalkan kami
Kerana takdir yang Maha Esa telah menetapkan
Sedih rasanya hati ini bila mngenangkan
Kau sahabatku kau teman sejati

Tulus ikhlasmu luhur budimu bagai tiada pengganti
Senyum tawamu juga katamu menghiburkan kami
Memori indah kita bersama terus bersemadi
Kau sahabatku kau teman sejati

Sudah ditakdirkan kau pergi dulu
Di saat kau masih diperlukan
Tuhan lebih menyayangi dirimu
Ku pasrah diatas kehendak yang Esa

Ya Allah,tempatkannya di tempat yang mulia
Tempat yang kau janjikan nikmat untuk hamba Mu
Sahabatku akan ku teruskan perjuangan ini
Walau ku tahu kau tiada di sisi

Perjuangan kita masih jauh beribu batu
Selagi roh masih di jasad hidup diteruskan
Sedih rasa hati ini mengenangkan dikau
Bagai semalam kau bersama kami

Moga amanlah dan bahagia dikau di sana
Setangkai doa juga Fatehah terus kukirimkan
Moga di sana kau bersama para solehin
Ku sahabatku kau teman sejati

Pernikahan atau perkahwinan menyingkap tabir rahsia?

Isteri yang kamu nikahi tidaklah semulia Khadijah, tidaklah setaqwa Aisyah, pun tidaklah setabah Fatimah.

Justeru isterimu hanyalah wanita akhir zaman yang punya cita- cita menjadi solehah....

Pernikahan atau perkahwinan mengajar kita kewajiban bersama.

Isteri menjadi tanah kamu langit penaungnya.

Isteri ladang tanaman kamu pemagarnya.

Isteri kiasan ternakan kamu gembalanya.

Isteri adalah murid kamu mursyidnya.

Isteri bagaikan anak kecil kamu tempat bermanjanya.

Saat isteri menjadi madu kamu teguklah sepuasnya.

Seketika isteri menjadi racun kamulah penawar bisanya.

Seandainya isteri tulang yang bengkok berhatilah meluruskannya.

Pernikahan atau perkahwinan menginsafkan kita perlunya iman dan taqwa.

Untuk belajar meniti sabar dan redha Allah s.w.t. kerana memiliki isteri yang tak sehebat mana.

Justeru kamu akan tersentak dari alpa.

Kamu bukanlah Rasulullah s.a.w.

Pun bukanlah Sayyidina Ali Karamallahhuwajhah.

Cuma suami akhir zaman yang berusaha menjadi soleh... amin..!

Untuk isteri.... renungkanlah. ....

Pernikahan atau perkahwinan membuka tabir rahsia?

Suami yang menikahi kamu tidaklah semulia Muhammad saw.

Tidaklah setaqwa Ibrahim.

Pun tidak setabah Ayyub

Atau pun segagah Musa ... apalagi setampan Yusuf..

Justeru suamimu hanyalah lelaki akhir zaman yang punya cita-cita membangunkan keturunan yang soleh..

Pernikahan atau perkahwinan mengajar kita kewajiban bersama

Suami menjadi pelindung kamu penghuninya.

Suami adalah nahkoda kapal kamu pengemudinya.

Suami bagaikan pelakon yang nakal kamu adalah penonton kenakalannya.

Saat suami menjadi raja kamu nikmati anggur singgahsananya.

Seketika suami menjadi bisa kamulah penawar ubatnya.

Seandainya suami bengis lagi lancang sabarlah memperingatkannya.

Pernikahan ataupun perkahwinan mengajarkan kita perlunya iman dan taqwa.
Untuk belajar meniti sabar dan redha Allah s.w.t. kerana memiliki suami yang tak segagah mana.

Justeru kamu akan tersentak dari alpa.

Kamu bukanlah Khadijah yang begitu sempurna dalam menjaga.

Pun bukanlah Hajar yang begitu setia dalam sengsara .

Cuma wanita akhir zaman yang berusaha menjadi solehah... amin!

Justeru itu wahai para suami dan isteri,

Jangan menuntut terlalu tinggi seandainya diri sendiri jelas tidak berupaya.

Mengapa mendambakan isteri sehebat Khadijah andai diri tidak semuliaRasulullah?

Mengapa mengharapkan suami setampan Yusof seandainya kasih tak setulus Zulaikha?

Tidak perlu mencari isteri secantik Balqis andai diri tidak sehebat Sulaiman DAN Tidak perlu mencari suami seteguh Ibrahim andai diri tidak sekuat Hajar dan Sarah.

Man U vs Malaysia...Blast!

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Fuh! after 40 calls with diff bidders, finally i've gotten 3 tix to Man U match. 18 July morning, i sat in front of my laptop with internet connection, hoping that i can get any available tix with cheaper price (eventhough i knw that the prices were marked up due to overwhelming response). tak sangke kan nak dapat! Tula org kata, tuah ayam nmpk di kaki, tuah manusia sape yang tahu kan. hehehe. Since i am oso has a very strong will attitude, i'd detemine to get any tix even i hv to pay higher for it. My mistake gak coz i didn't buy earlier. Nevertheless, i believe my bro would book it in order for both of us to get the tix, tapi die pulak yang terlupe nak book! hampeh betul.huhu...

it just suddenly i remember someone at that time when he was saying he didn't have an opportunity to buy the tix. tetibe je rs nak ajak. that's y i tried to get 3 tix, so that i could watch the game not only with my bro, but oso him! ( i guess i have a big crush with him, but i guess he doesn't realise my feeling towards him yet). But what i can say, i had a very wonderful evening with not only the games, but oso the player (finally Ryan Giggs kuar gak last2 minute) and him as well. i was hoping that i could watch the re-match tomorrow but it such an impossible as i need to go back to Kertih tomorrow.haih~~~

Kembara Ke Tanah Suci Part 2

^3rd day kami ke Makkah. Sedih rsnyer hati, tp semoga Allah beri aku keizinan dan rezeki utk kembali kesana dan menjadi tetamuNYA sekali lagi. Kami singgah di Bir Ali utk miqat umrah. Dan kami teruskan perjalanan ke makkah. Kami sampai disana, mase tu dah masuk waktu asar. Di sebabkan kami dh jamak di R&R, so kami naik ke hotel, check-in, berehat sekejap then terus menunaikan umrah. Jarak hotel di Makkah pon dlm 80 metre from masjidilharam. Alhamdulillah. Sampai di depan masjidilharam, lidah kelu tak terkata. No words can express my feeling at that time and buat kesekian kalinya, tak tau bile, air mata dh deras mengalir. Bertambah2 deras bila dah masuk masjidilharam, nmpk pulak kaabah. Tak tergambar dgn kata2. Dgn bantuan mutawwif, kami memulakan umrah dgn pusingan tawaf di keliling kaabah sebanyak 7x. kemudian sai’e, tahalul dan tertib. Alhamdulillah, dgn tunjuk ajar dia, kami dapat menyempurnakan umrah kali pertama itu dan me and my frens managed to get 7x of umrah sepanjang kami di sana which is bersamaan dgn satu haji kecil. What I foreseen, ibadah paling challenging adalah sai’e which is berjalan 7x kali dr safa ke marwah dan betul2 menginsafkan macammane siti hajar boleh berlari2 anak sebanyak 7x dalam jarak yang agak jauh gak. Itulah yang paling memenatkan tp paling byk mengajar erti kesabaran dan keinsafan. Alhamdulillah, Subhanallah. bukan utk menunjuk, tp ini nak menegaskan betapa pentingya kesihatan dan tenaga yang kuat pd usia muda kalo pergi masa muda. Kita dpt buat seberapa byk yang boleh, dengan khusyuk, tawaduk dan able utk stay up seberapa lama yang boleh. Alhamdulillah, aku managed khatam quran disana! Unbeliveable. Alhamdullilah, Allahuakbar! Begitu byk kesempatan, peluang dan masa yang Allah beri pd aku di sana. Utk memaximisekan masa yang ada utk berdamping denganNYA. Disini juga byk pengajaran dan pengalaman yang aku kutip sepanjang di Makkah. Sebab itulah kita disuruh mengawal dan menjaga perlakuan, tuturkata dan segala2nya semasa di sana. Otherwise, u’ll get ‘cash’ return at there and that what was happened to me and my friends. Bukan sekali, tp 2kali. Bukan kerana tak menjaga tuturkata atau be bad mouth, tp kuasa Allah nak menunjukkan apa yang DIA mampu buat dan berikan pada hambaNYA straight away or immediately. 1^st ‘cash’ return yang aku received at that time was berkaitan hanay satu perkataan, “explore”.

One fine day, after solat asar, me and my friends were decided to find best port utk di jadikan pangkalan solat kitorg utk hari2 yang seterusnya. Kitorg nak cari kawasan solat yang menghadap Hijr ismail di tingkat 1 at that time. So my fren was asking, “kite nak g mane ni?” and I was answering, “ kite nak g EXPLORE masjidilharam ni.” After few mintues, Alhamdulillah kami jumpe gak port yang best dan menghadap hampir ke Hijr ismail dan kami terus iktikaf hingga isyak. Nak dijadikan cerita, pas solat tu utk kembali ke hotel, kitorg gatal ikut jalan keluar yang kami tak pernah lalui. Maka berlaku la ‘ganjaran’ Allah pada kami. Memang kami betul2 explore kawasan luar masjidilharam tu hingga ke kawasan construction masjid. Mase tu we were like few km jauhnyer dr our hotel. Cemas tu tak yah crite la because kami dh sesat. Tetibe teringat perkataan ‘explore’ yang aku guna td. Mmg betul kata org, kite akan dpt immediate result on anything that we wished for. Tapi Alhamdulillah, berkat dr sesat tu, kami dh tau long cut and short cut to our hotel. Byk yang dpt kami tgk dan explore di sekitar masjidilharam esp di kawasan luar. Macam tawaf gakla…hehehe. Akhirnya kami jumpe jalan masuk ke bukit marwah (utk sai’e) dan kami cam jalan tu. The arabic guard was helping on showing us jalan ke babul King Abdul Aziz, the main entrance, which is pintu yang selalu kami ikut. Alhamdulillah, berjaya juga kami pulang. Di sebalik pengajaran tu, terselit jugak hikmah dan pengalaman. Subhanallah!

2^nd cash return was happened ms hari ke-2 terakhir kami di Makkah. Before that, few days b4 that, memang aku dh sebut yang aku teringin nak naik public transport selain van dan teksi (coz dh pernah naik), so kami leh dpt pengalaman naik bus kat sane. Mane tau one day nak dtg sane sdiri2 kan. Nak dijadikan cerita, kami ditinggalkan oleh mutawwif kitorg coz lambat sgt. Jadi Allah pun mengabulkan doa aku yang teringin nak naiki bus utk miqat. Alhamdulillah, we were arrived safely and our mutawwif pon tegezut tgk kitorg sampai cepat. Mau tak nyer, pepaham jela org arab speeding. Saudi Boleh! Huh! So itulah pengalaman dan ‘hadiah’ dr DIA yang berguna utk kami utk di jadikan kenang2an balik ke malaysia. Alhamdulillah, kami dpt mengerjakan umrah2 dengan sempurna, very smooth dan tiada bende2 pelik yang berlaku pd kami. Tp tula, ade org kate, sebenarnyer bile kite dpt experience dan jumpe bende2 pelik tu, sbnrnyer lagi berguna utk kite kutip dan lebih kuat iman kita pada NYA. Tp insyaallah, tanpe pengalaman pelik tu pon, insyaallah aku masih berpegang teguh pada agama dan iman yang kuat (nak kata sempurna, tidakla. Aku masih manusia yang sgt lemah, yang masih inginkan dan perlukan hiburan dan keseronokan juga, janji tak melampaui batas). Yang bestnyer, aku dan kwn2 dpt buat 7x kali umrah, aku dapat khatam quran and dpt perform solat jenazah whereby I never performed the solah in KL. Satu pengalaman yang menakjubkan esp bile aku tgk on the last day we were there, ade lebih dr 12 jenazah disolatkan selepas solat subuh. Maha Suci Allah! Betapa ramai yang meninggal di tanah haram, tanah suci yang mana Allah memelihara hamba2NYA. Setiap kali waktu solat, pasti ada jenazah. Pengalaman buat tawaf sunat, berada dan berdoa lama didepan multazam, hijr ismail, makam ibrahim membuatkan aku benar2 insaf dan terpana dengan ‘kemudahan’ yang Allah berikan pada aku. Aku Cuma berharap agar doa2 yang dikirim malahan doa aku sdiri akan dimakbulkan, regardless cepat atau lambat. Satu shj yang tak dpt aku perolehi, kucup hajarul aswad. Insyaallah, jika ada rezeki ku kesana, aku akan berdoa semoga akau dpt mengucupnya.

Antara tempat2 bersejarah yang kami lawati di makkah ialah Jabal Nur, Jabal Thur, muzdalifah, mina, jabal rahmahl, hudaibiyah dan muzium kaabah. Setiap lawatan kami meninggalkan kenangan dan pengalaman yang menarik dan menginsafkan bg kami semua. Banyak jugak nak crite ni. Lenguh jugak. So kalo nak rs ape yang kitorg rs, mula la menanamkan impian dan berusaha utk sampai ke sana k! Allah itu maha penyayang, insyaallah adela rezeki u all after this. Kami bertolak balik pada 4/5/09 dan arrived at KLIA pada 5/05/09 around 5pm gtu, memang menangis sakan jugak la mengenangkan masjidilharam semakin jauh dr pandangan mata, maka at the same time juga la aku menanamkan azam utk ke sana semula. Mungkin bersama suami aku, who knows? Hehehe…tp so far, belum bertemu lagi seseorang tu. Insyaallah ada lah rezeki tu nnt. Janji Allah pada hamba2NYA yang berusaha.

-Amin…Wassalam-

Kembara Ke Tanah Suci Part 1

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Sekian lama rasenyer tak mengupdate blog sdiri. Cian blog aku di perlakukan sebegitu..huhu…

1^st of all, because im just back for updating, I would like to share with everybody esp those yang interested and rs ingin sekali nak ke tanah suci. Bagi yang tak pernah menjejakkan kaki ke sana, anngaplah ia sebagai inspiration to go there. If you still young, capable, u have extra money and ready to be one of HIS VIP, jangan sesekali lepaskan peluang utk ke sana, tanah haram/ tanah suci = Makkah dan Madinah. It such a great moment, memory and experience. U’ll feel what I had felt when I when there. Mmg rs taknak balik. Tapi kene terima hakikat, touching the ground that I have to go back dan menjalani rutin hidup as usual. Cuma aku sgt berharap, dgn kepulangn aku dr Tanah Suci, ada sesuatu yang dpt aku kutip dan bw balik dr sana sebagai pengajaran dan transformasi kehidupan aku di Malaysia.

Ramai sgt yang tanyer, how I feel after I went there? Best x? standard question right? Ada 1001 jawapan utk satu soalan ini, tp hanya akan terjawab bile u all sdiri pergi. Why im saying that? Sebab u all akan rs best ke tak hanya bile anda berada di sana. It speechless! Maha Suci Allah, Maha Agung, Maha Besar, Maha Pengasih dan Penyayang. Syukur alhamdulillah, berhasil juga aku menjadi tetamu Allah dr ribuan manusia yang masih belum menerima hidayah dan invitation dariNYA. U should pray supaya satu hari nnt Allah akan menghantar satu invitation yang tak disangka2 pd u all, so that u can go there. Ada orang berduit, sunnguh banyak…merata negara dh pegi. Europe jangan sebutlah…confirm dan sampai. Tp mostly ramai yang belum ke Tanah Suci. Kenapa? Kerana on top of having lots of money, invitation from HIM also is the most biggest factor for you to go. Means tak sampai seru la tu. Sebabnya, bila dh terasa panggilan dariNYA, seseorang pasti akan bekerja keras untuk kumpul duit ke sana.

Okla, start with my real story. I went there from 24/4/09 – 5/5/09. What a nice number rite? Huhu…I went under package with Juara Travel Sdn Bhd, located at Ampang jaya. I tell u what, if u all rajin skit nak google to find travel agency yg wat package umrah ni, u can see lots of them are actually promoting low package to go there, as low as RM3,000! Janji jangan bersungut psl accomodation and foods. Cukupla dengan bersyukur coz dapat pegi. It is blessful enuf. Unless u hv lot of money, u can go with a 1^st class package. No problem, bereh! For me, the accomodation and the foods are not really a big deal for me, janji jgn merempat tepi jalan and makan pasir, because what I should concern more is my ibadah during my time there. Can I get enuf time to hv more ibadah there, etc. alhamdulillah! Maha Suci Allah, DIA bagi sepenuh masa yang ada di situ utk aku maximise kan masa aku ber’dating’ with HIM. Best gile!

We took Singapore Airlines and we touchdown at Jeddah. Quite tiring coz kene transit kt Singapore and the flight stop at Abu Dhabi. But I didn’t really care because at least leh tgk negara orang. Abu dhabi is a nice place eventhough panas terik, tp kawasan die very structured. We were lucky coz the weather is very good. Sgt cerah. So we can see clearly down there. Mmg Abu Dhabi sgt cantik! Maybe die takla colorful cam kite and very flowery, but what i like bout Abu Dhabi is their structure, their road, etc. very strategise and planned well. I wish I can go there, on top of Dubai someday. Huhu…

After 9 hours journey, finally we arrived at jeddah airport. Kitorg sampai ms tu around 8pm waktu sana. They are 5 hours late than us. After checked out and immigration things setteled, we headed straightly to Madinah 1^st and it took another 5 hours to reach madinah from Jeddah. In between, we stopped by at their R&R, and pls and pls… try their Nasi Arab. Superb sedap. I still remember the restaurant name. restaurant Yamani. And actually along the road to Madinah, that’s the only R&R yang ada. Yang len kite cume akan nmpk, gurun, padang pasir, bukit bukau, gunung ganang yang tandus dan gersang. Cewah..hehehe…so, after dah makan, solat jamak sume, we continued our journey to Madinah. We reached there around 4am, which is di ambang subuh. Waktu subuh masuk 4.30am. our hotel distance to masjid an-nabawi is just around 80 meters. Sgt dekat, Alhamdulillah! Sampai2 je, nmpk masjid an-nabawi je, terus menangis. Xtau dr mane dtgnyer syahdu tu, but I just cant believe it that I was there. In front of the masjid. Again, Subhanallah. Sayu sgt2, dengan deraian air mata yang quite deras gakla. Dr ctu dh bertekad insyaallah ade rezeki aku lagi tahun ni, aku nak anta my parent, ibu dan abah ke umrah. Abah dh pernah naik haji, tp ibu belum lagi. Jadi aku berhasrat utk hantar kedua2nye this time around. Hopefully tahun ni dapatla bonus…hehehe. Di samping tu, aku rs bersyukur sgt2 kerana Allah beri aku kesempatan di kala umur yang masih muda, badan masih sihat, kuat dan fikiran yang masih kuat dan waras utk menjadi tetamu NYA. Itulah kata orang, rezeki badan.

At Madinah, we were living 4 pax at one room. Alhamdulillah, I get to know 3 others new frens whereby until now we still maintain our friendship after back to KL and they become antara my close friends as well; Sala, Ryan and Mastura. Because they were going there 3 sekawan, so aku pon senang mix around with them, I was grateful because I can hv my prayer there smoothly, di temani dgn kwn2 yang cool, hv the same energy dan determination mcm aku gak, so we hv no prob in performing all prayer together2. Rasa macam tak puas sebenarnyer duduk di Madinah because dpt 3hari, tp sekurang2nya, adala pengalaman yang dpt aku timba dan kenangan di sana as well. I like Madinah very much because the bandar is very structured and cleaner than makkah. But Madinah is hotter than Makkah, because kat sane tak de wind. Itu lebih membuatkan kitorg nak stay je dlm masjid. In Madinah, we went to masjid Quba’ and other mosques yang bersejarah. Then, we’ve been brought to Ladang kurma which aku borong kurma mmg tak ingat punyer la kat cni. Huhu…cumenyer, mase tu tak musim lagi, so fresh kurma tu takda. Tak dptla aku nak memenuhi keinginan ibu masa tu. And then, we oso went to jabal uhud (bukit uhud), tempat pertempuran uhud dahulu dan mendoakan para syuhada’ yang gugur di ctu. And the last but not least is Kilang Al-Quran yang terbesar di dunia. Sungguh tak percaya dah sampai di citu and actually kilang tu located right after keluar dr Tanah haram. Means located at Tanah Halal. Currently women are not allowed to enter the factory, I think because hygiene issue because women kan ade time bendera merah die berkibar2. But what I heard, they are now in progress to let women go in, because bukan setakat tgk masuk je tau, siap dpt quran free lagi.jeles betul ngn guys.huh! and info yang aku dapat kat cni, actually kerajaan Arab Saudi dah alocated printed quran to be given one each to all jemaah Haji. Bile tibe musim haji je, mmg sume akan dapat. Cantik tau quran die. Tak tipu! And then, kat cni juga boleh beli quran utk disedekahkan ke masjid an-nabawi dan masjidil haram. Because kalau kite beli, and tak same dgn corak quran yang ada kat dlm masjid tu, die akan sedekahkan pd orang. Selalunyer aku terjadi excess of al-quran hasil sedekah orang. Kalo org yg dpt al-quran tu, baca al-quran tu takpe. Kalo yang jarang bace? Hmm…sendirila fikir ya. Aku cume berharap agar ape yang disedekahkan kat masjid tu dimanfaatkan oleh para jemaah masjid dan menjadi ‘saham’ di akhirat nnt. Ameen…Tetibe teringat mutawwif tu cakap, maka selamatlah semua penduduk di dalam Tanah Haram semasa dunia menghadapi akhir zaman kerana mereka tidak akan diganggu dan takkan dapat dimasuki langsung oleh binatang perosak, ya’juj dan ma’juj. Subhanallah.

Madinah juga tempat yang sgt best utk shopping actually. Aku pun tak brape makan ngn catering yang provided because the caterer are Indonesian and so masakan die pun cam same ngn kita. I just want to maximise whatever opportunity that I had there. So me and frens bykla jugak berpusing di kwsn sekitar, mencuba makanan arab dan kebab dorg. Sgt superb! Di sni juga shopping actually better than Makkah. Eventhough maybe some of the items or clothes are cheaper in Makkah, but if u prefer the quality, dun deny the quality of the clothes at Madinah. It’s a better quality. So banyakla aku memborong ngn dorg kat cni. Lagipon better cause kat Makkah boleh concentrate on ibadah umrah, etc.

Alhamdulillah, menakjubkan gak cause I managed to get in to raudhah 2 times! Kesempatan yang sgt jarang di nikmati dan di dapati. 1^st time masuk mmg susah. 2^nd time masuk, kami pegi after isyak, alhamdulillah much more easier than the 1^st. I managed to performed few solat sunat and berdoa. Disebabkan women ada mase2 tertentu shj utk masuk ke Raudhah, so memang la kami sentiasa in ‘on war mode’. Sad to know that women are not allowed to enter to Rasulullah and Abu bakar’s grave and I believe it’s because some of the women are very fanatic and dorg menangis meraung2 dpn makam, so that’s y dorg tak allowed women masuk which last time women were allow to go in. so berdoa shj la dr luar. Semoga kekasih Allah itu mendengar salam dr kami dan kawan2 kami yang berpesan kiriman salam. Kami juga ke perkuburan Baqi’, perkuburan utk sesiapa shj yang meninggal dunia di madinah. Macam kes jemaah umrah Mesia kite yang meninggal cause of accident di Bir Ali dl, dikebumikan di sni. Maha Suci Allah, dpt di kebumikan bersama2 para sahabat, mujahidin, syuhada’ dan para ulama’. Lane yang depan sekali, berhampiran sekali dgn masjid is dikebumikan para sahabat, seterusnya, isteri2 baginda, para ulama’ dan akhir skali all the local ppl there and outsider yang meninggal kat sane. Diriwayatkan nabi akan pergi 2x sehari ke perkuburan itu utk berdoa kepada seluruh ahli kubur disitu. Subhanallah! Insaf sungguh. Maka that’s y ramai yang nak meninggal di Tanah Haram, supaya dosa2nya terampun dan diangkat dikalangan manusia yang terpuji dan beriman. 1^st class treatment in akhirat!